The snowmen lie down to hear their bedtime stories, in preparation for the next dawn... ...

34 more hours to end of yr 1 sem 1!

I have been doing nth but slacking nowadays. Well. I guess it is really time to start studying for my last paper. The past few papers are nth but flops and sad to say, i have already prepared my letter of explanation to D**A. lol. how i wish 22nd dec wun come.

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I believe one day, i will get over all my troubles, and i can take a look at those troublemakers in the face and tell them. "I am better than you!"

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A short question to ponder.

If you know that you will make someone feel hurt, how will you do it?
1) Pretend to be nice and when things happen, too bad...
2) Just deal that harm to him/her now.


I will really appreciate if your ans is 2.
Yet, sadly, there are aplenty out there whose ans is 1 :( and the harm they deal still hurts. Freaking distracted me from my studies at such a crucial period!




Exams Exams Exams.

I dun dare to comment much on my CTW especially since there is a high tendency for teachers to view my essay from a completely diff angle from mine. (if you get what i mean)

Physics was a ...
I spent 45min on thermodynamics, which comprises of 1/3 of the entire paper, and 15min on the remaining 2/3.
"aiseh! 15min!"
A simple reason.
Because it takes me a much shorter time to insert blanks as my answer. definitely hopeless. But come to think of it again. I am pretty sure the whole world died with me after that fateful 2 hours.

(= Programming.=) The best paper i have so far. Highest hope of getting an A. =D I guess the pretty Lab TA must have somehow inspired me. LOL. awwww. How I wish she can be my TA for cs1102c.

Maths. Pray for the best.

EE. Pray for the best.

3/5 done! gambatte all the way!

Jam foreverz! :D

i just screwed my first test ever since 2 yrs.

6/10 for maths. I think my score is behind mr bell now.
Fuck. To make matters worse, it is nt that i dunno how to do the questions. Mr careless, you beat me for once.

3/pi ln 3 = 1/pi ln 27. WTF why can't i see it?
cos2X >= 0 for 0<=x and x>=pi/2 FK LA!
1+x+x^2+x^3+x^4 = (1-x^3)/(1-x) KNN! Where has ur knowledge of GP gone to???
Radius of convergence.

CCB!

Time to wake up! Mr Koh Ming Seng!

I cannot find my info on lexisnexis!!! grr.
so i decided to take a break and make an attempt at composing.
Just a short para.

这是我 最后一次送你我的温柔
我明白 死缠烂打不能改变结果
如果离开你 能换来你的笑容
我愿意忍着痛 放开手 让你走

答应我 从此以后 你要好好的过
我承诺 我虽很痛 但我绝不回头





Let me declare first. please dun read too much into it. It doesn't carry any meaning.
Time to go b to study!

I dun really understand some people.

1) My lecturer. Duh!!! U can ask any EE students from my school and they can give u a definite YES!

2) My mother who keeps pestering me abt what i m doing and y i have been returning home late. I dun see anything wrong w that. I understand that it is an act of concern but i just dun like the expression on her face even though what i told her is the truth.

3) Some of my friends for the most obvious reason (that is y i m nt explaining it)

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My dad mopped the floor and i dropped my tutorial on the wet floor. *_* what's left is just ink on the paper. And now i m re-doing the whole tutorial. -.-

I m seriously super pissed now (not at my dad but at my luck).

宁愿爱一点不剩 也不忍看恋人爱成路人

我以为要是唱的用心良苦
你总会对我多点在乎
我以为虽然爱情已成往事
千言万语说出来可以互相安抚

期待你感动 真实的我们难相处
写词的让我 唱出你要的幸福
谁曾经感动 分手的关头才懂得
离开排行榜更铭心刻骨

我已经相信有些人我永远不必等
所以我明白在灯火栏珊处
为什么会哭

你不会相信嫁给我明天有多幸福
只想你明白
我心甘情愿爱爱爱爱到要吐
那是醉生梦死才能熬成的苦
爱如潮水 我忘了我是谁
至少还有你哭

我想唱一首歌给我们祝福
唱完了我会一个人住
我愿意试着了解从此以后
拥挤的房间一个人的心
有多孤独

我已经相信有些人我永远不必等
所以我明白在灯火栏珊处
为什么会哭

你不会相信嫁给我明天有多幸福
只想你明白
我心甘情愿爱爱爱爱到要吐

让我断了气铁了心爱的过火
一回头就找到出路
让我成为了无情的k歌之王
麦克风都我征服

想不到你 若无其事的说
这样滥情 何苦

我想来一个吻别作为结束
想不到你只说我不许哭
不让我领悟

what a nice touching song :)

lol. I love the dance :P

sigh... running a fever now. I guess i must have over exerted ytd -.-

Time flies. I have been in school for one month. Nothing much. I haven't been studying faithfully though. Not that I care. Take things as they go and they will sort themselves out at the end of the day. Isn't it true? ;)

k. Back to the main topic.
Seriously i dunno what to say or to be more exact, how to go about saying it. K. Let's just get straight to the point. Dun worry about me. Have fun and wish u all the best =D I m ok. Yes. I am talking about the two of u. Dun think too much le. Go go go. Announce it! =)

I dunno if it is good or bad. You all can decide for me.

it was a really nice party. Thanks to jr and wt, the whole party falls nicely into pieces. Though i feel a bit ashamed of myself for nt helping much. But at the end of the day, most of my friends appeared and i must say i m vv touched by that. I gt 3 man utd jerseys at the end of the day, one printed with rooney and two blank. Woot. first, CS told me to print fletcher and vidic. LC told me the exact same thing later. what a pleasant coincidence. Does that mean the three of them are the best players in Man Utd? Yeah!!! =D

after which we had a pleasant dim sum supper at geylang (OMG pls dun think otherwise). It is just an innocent gathering!!) and i had a stayover at Raymond's house. Nth much in particular, just that it was a straight kbox outing the next day. Perhaps it is due to the air-con room which i slpt in but whatever the reason, i gt that terrible flu bug and my singing ended up haywired. But well, i still have an enjoyable time since singing is always something nice. cheers! :)

then tuition. OMG so poor thing. Giving a tuition on ur bday. Well, it is ok. I love teaching pple provided they are obedient. And yes they are. I am so happy that they are willing to co-operate w me as an attempt to fulfill my bday wish :)

And the shit comes.

I really regretted adding that freak into the convo box. It was just an innocent comment. Someone commented that Gallas' goal is super farnie. and yes that goal means he has scored 3 goals in 3 games. But all his goals are kinda tyco so i jus commented that they are tyco. That freak, being a Gunner's fan, said that he is dulan becuz of tat. I mean like WTF! I m nt even shooting him or wat. I immediately explained myself: I dun deny that Arsenal is playing a v nice football but gallas goals are really tyco. And the reply i received was yea wadever fk off, in the last few seconds of my birthday *_* Well, i was, of cuz, pissed off so i just voiced it to a few individuals. Yea i had tons of frustration to vent so i approached yz for a dota game. Thank god i won and i felt so much better.

then i went facebook and saw that freak commented: Some pple think it is a divine right to be insensitive. WTF?!?

THAT.
WAS.
REALLY.
THE.
LAST.
STRAW.

... ...
To a certain extent, i may be a bit insensitive when i made my initial comment. but those are really my heartfelt opinions and i m nt even insulting him or watsoever. AND PLS GOD, HE USED THAT WORD ON ME or in other words, he attacked me personally on my bday. I really wonder who is the real insensitive guy. And to be honest, this was nt the first time he throw such a tantrum. I m really sick and tired of facing him as a friend. I deleted everything i know abt him.

I guess being a nice guy leads you to the losing end in everything you do. This is nt the first time i have experienced this. the moment pple think u are nice, you are doomed, for you will forever be that 'easy-to-bully' guy in their eyes. If so, then wat is the point of being nice? At the end of the day, the outcome will be what is happening to me right now. VOMIT BLOOD. But i m so sorry. I m nt Mr. Nice esp since you have crossed over my limits.

So now there is really anything i want to tell him, it will be

"FK OFF AND TO HELL WITH YOU"

And as i desperately went round and round hoping to find smth to douse the flame within me, I came across smth that upset me even more. I got a glimpse of it the other day and the worst fear actually came true. haiz. It must have been a prank of God on me. Why must all the bad things report to me simultaneously? Haiz. It must have been becuz i have been too nice. I m good to bully. I am a crybaby. I am worthless.

To all of the pple who think of me that way,
fuck Fuck FUck FUCk FUCK YOU ALL!!!

and now as i re-read my whole entry, i sort of understand why are all of the bad things happening to me right now. I am so sorry for this load of crap though i have said umpteen times that i wun be emo-ing.

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Hey how's school?
School has been anything but interesting. -.-

I realised how small my grp of friends is, how boring things can be and how hard life can be. I m nt talking abt adapting to uni life, but life in general. I know that I havent been blogging recently too. Not that i had forgotten abt its existence, but there is just nth much worth sharing. I dun really want to keep posting entries which are full of bitching and complaints.

I made it into the IFG vball team 2009. Well, that is nt surprising given that it is going to be a decade since i first touched a vball. But I jus feel excited abt getting the free shirt. HAHA. But seriously, it sucks to know how much i had "improved" esp after the 2yrs break. And i m considering if i shuld join sch team which seems bound for a 'wallop' session by tallie and shortie -.-

AND I havent been singing for quite some time. -.- and i think i have a yin yang sang3... lol

Anyway, M1 users can get a pair of tickets at $10 during wkends. I guess it is a great opportunity to jio friends to watch movie ;)

Recently, I m troubled emotionally. I m lost. I dunno where i m heading to in life. I guess the premonition is going to come true in due time, or in other words, i reaped what i sow. Sometimes, it is really quite sad to see how you can spend so much time to build on a dream, only to single-handedly shatter it within a night. Worse still, u regret it now and it is too late. Well, as a matter of fact, i have come to terms w it but i m just 'bu gan yuan'. HAHA. bu shuang.

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in 4 hours time.

Good luck! Let's hope the nxt 4 yrs will be an eventful one for me. =)



My earphone is spoilt again...

and orientation week is finally here!

Basically, i fink it is going to be a fun yet tough week, where i have to juggle the activities w my outings or even my tuition. Well. First 2 days were nt that bad and i managed to befriend quite a number in my OG. But too bad, for the sake of bs, i will pon today. haiz. Guess i will have to miss out the fun parts today.

Not just that, it oso brings in a whole new angle to the word despo. All along, i condemn the word to members of my gender, as NS guys tend to have such a stereotype. BUT I WAS SO WRONG. Some gals are really v scary and they scare the shit out of me by doing some ridiculous crap stuff. I dun think i shall mention them here but to the nice guys out there, beware of their existence. HAHA.

I jus returned from a EE lecture. I liked the way the lecturers conduct their talks. Their voices are clear and I managed to get wat they are saying (I thot i wun)... except for an Indian lecturer. His accent is too strong. KNS and though i can comprehend what he is trying to drive at, I dun like it. Disclaimer: I am nt a racist but i just really hate the way he talked. He slurred in his speech and it is of no wonder y so many pple abandon the LT minutes after he opened his mouth. LOL

well well well. School is starting..
Starting...

in 6 days time.

This song is written by Ella for her dad.



我 我有你的大眼睛
我有你的大耳朵
还有和你一模一样浓的眉毛

你 你有一个好老婆
你有四个好孩子
一群爱你的朋友
因为你也爱朋友

我的单手超人啊
只手撑起一家人
想用你给我的双手用力抱紧你
要你知道我多爱你

我的单手超人啊
我们一家都是你fans
下辈子有缘能遇见你 换我做超人保护你

I love the last line in particular. :)